CT

Words can't describe how I feel.  I hate 'bad guys' as my daughter would call them.  I hate selfish people, people who want to hurt anyone else.  And I really hate, deep deep hatred people who would hurt or kill kids.  You can tell me many times over that I should be thankful that this didn't happen to my daughter or that the odds are very low that it will happen at her school.  And I just don't care.  I don't need your words.

1.  My daughter is 6 years old.  The same age as the kids who were killed.
2.  I drop her off at school, knowing that they have a secure video entry.  They will not let anyone in who they don't know.
3.  There is now a cop at the school but not sure how long that will last.
4.  The odds were very low that this happened to Sandy Hook...maybe more low than my daughter's school.

When we drop our kids off at school, we don't think that this is the last time I will ever talk to my child.  This will be the last time I give her a hug or tell her to have a good day.  This is the last time I will watch her walk into her school.  You don't think that.  You don't look around the parking lot, open fields, drive ways, etc...looking for something wrong.  And here you are...you are stuck in a line of cars to drop you kid off and you can't move until the car in front of you does.  But we are now aware of everything around us and try not to think about what happened in CT.  Because if you do, you won't let you child get out of your car.

So yeah, my daughter is 6 years old and in first grade.  She is in the first classroom going down the hallway.  Things I never noticed until yesterday...1/2 of her classroom door is glass and she doesn't have a bathroom or closet to hide in.  I have always been under the theory of expect the best but plan for the worst.  What do we plan for now?  If someone broke into the school...would her door, being it was the first, be the first classroom they entered?  Why would a parent ever think of something like this?  Yet I do.

Sandy Hook just had a security camera entry installed.  The same thing my daughter's school has.  Did someone at that school just hit the button to unlock the door?  Why would they do that?  Would my school do that?  Well, no one did that.  He shot the front doors!  He shot the glass out!  He went in that way.  So the security wouldn't have stopped him.  It wouldn't stop someone from going into my daughter's school.  Is there a way to get bullet proof glass in all those doors?  How much will that cost?  Are we willing to pay for it?  Are we willing to risk the odds of it not happening to us to save the money it would cost?

Yeah, there is a cop there and will be there all week long.  But when will they go away?  Is there a way to have someone there at the doors  or in the office (right inside the doors) who is a professional when it comes to guns and can shot a nut job in the head as they enter?  No, I don't want all the teachers to have guns nor the principal but I would feel better having a cop in there.  Can we afford that cost?  Can we not afford that cost?

Sandy Hook was the last place in the world this type of thing should have happened.  Small tight knit community of well off families.  It was a school with a 10 rating on good schools website.  Very few of these schools exist!  People are smart, people are loving, people respect one another...people all over America want to move here for the school alone.  There was nothing in the world that would have warned anyone that this school was a target.  It shouldn't have happened to them!  Yet it did.  You can't say anymore that it will not happen at your school.  More than likely it won't...but it could!

Those parents, families, friends and community lost 20 great kids for no fucking reason!  They were scared when they died, they were holding hands when they died.  And I hate the man who did it with all of my being.  Yes, my daughter was not one of them.  But once you become a parent...if something happens to one child, it pains you like it was your own.  Your grief will not be as strong as the family members but the fear is.  I have lost many people who were a strong part of my life.  But nothing hurts me more than this messed up killing event.  Those kid's names should be remembered by everyone.  Those faces should be remembered by everyone.  And the fucker who did it...his name should be burned like his body.  Fuck him!

Now what do we do next to make sure this never happens again?  Bullet proof glass at schools?  Tighter security?  safe rooms in the class rooms?  Reporting the type of behavior mass killers show before the kill?  "help" the mentally ill (these types...nothing will help them...well all know that).  Ban assault riffles?  Take random threats as real threats and question the people...stop them before it happens.  Yeah, human rights will be trampled on...and OH the 1st...freedom of speech.  Is the lives of 20 kids or more worth you being questioned about making threats?  YES!  Just one is worth it!

So now it is up to us to make sure we change the world so this doesn't happen.  Because this needs to stop! We need to stop being so damn PC and making sure we don't hurt someone's feelings or offend someone.  I don't give a shit if you are offended...grow a fucking spine!  Stand up...speak up...DO SOMETHING!  I would rather be the person who jumped to conclusions about a comment someone made or the way they were acting...than the person on the news saying "well, I didn't think it was anything to be worried about".  DO SOMETHING NOW even if you come out looking like a bad friend with that person...you might just end up saving 26 people without even knowing it.  DO SOMETHING!